One step

So I went on the Wii this morning, and as suspected I was 2lbs lighter (226). So that's 3 lbs more to go with the holiday weight. I do not think I will make it to 215 by Jan 1st. Therefore, I am hoping to at least be at 220 (though it would be great to get into the teens, so maybe 219...).

I did not go to the gym as planned early this morning. I realized that this would be my only morning to sleep past 6:15am. I think that by giving myself "a free morning", psychologically, I will not be as stressed and therefore eat a little less during this long week.

For breakfast I had an english muffin with one egg on it (around 200 calories total). For a linner today I had a pre-made chicken masala entree from Safeway (380 calories). I ate so late due to a huge fight with the boyfriend. This made me realize that under mild stress/being upset I eat a lot. However, when I am upset to an extreme I lose my appetite. For a snack I had some goldfish and pirate booty (est 300 calories). Then for another snack when I got home from work I had a small quesadilla (total of 200 calories). This makes a total of 1080 calories for the day, which makes me happy! It also makes me realize how much junk food can add up. I had my usual Monday snack during a therapy group I facilitate, which came to 300 calories. That equals between a third and a fourth of my total calories I ate today.

I also did my weights and my abs tonight.

Overall today was a good day and a great start in the right direction. When I get back on the right track I usually find the first day easy and the second day the hardest. Wish me luck for tomorrow!

Holidays

So...Thanksgiving has come and sadly not gone from my thighs yet. The overall week was filled with good days and mainly bad days. I think it would have been much better if it hadn't been for wine and rum (and will power...).

I stepped on the scale this evening and it said that I had gained 5 lbs!!! I usually weight myself in the mornings, so I am thinking that since it was night and I had just been at the gym and drank a bunch of water it might be a little high. I am going to weight myself in the morning. I think it will drop by a pound or two.

I went to the gym 3 days this week. While this is not my goal (4-6 days a week) this is still not too bad. This coming week I will at most be able to go 4 times, which is due to babysitting. However, on the two days I am sitting all day I will be able to take walks.

After seeing the scale I did my weights and abs. Which is something I need to start doing more often. I am going to try and start adding one day of weights at the gym a week. This is not much but I do think that since I am (for the most part!) losing weight, I need to try and tone up loose skin. I am hoping that by January I will be doing weights at the gym for most of the days I am going.

I have planned out my meals for Monday and Tuesday already. I have them set to around 1,000 calories a day. I will probably up Mondays a few more hundred since I will be at the gym that day and not Tuesday.

My goal for this week is to have dropped the pounds I gained from Thanksgiving.

11/20/09

Today began well. I had half a cup of oatmeal for breakfast (165 calories). For a snack I had a luna bar (180 calories). I went to the gym and did the elliptical for 60 minutes. Third day in a row! For lunch I had a sandwich from Safeway. I am assuming that the sandwich had a good amount of calories in it. I am going to assume 850 for it. I had a bicardi limon martini, which included around 1.5 shots of bicardi and one shot of vermouth. It was hard finding calorie contents. However, I did find that a shot of bicardi has around 105 calories. So that's around 155 for the bicardi. I will assume that the vermouth has the same, so my overall estimate for the drink is 250 calories. Then me and my boyfriend ordered out Thai, and had about 2 or 3 more glasses of wine. Sooo....considering that a glass of wine has around 100 calories, that's another 300. Then the Thai food... I am not even going to try to add this up. I am sure I went way over my totals.

I am wondering how the rest of the weekend goes. I will be meeting a friend for a movie and am going to try and bring my own snacks. Let's see how it goes!

11/19/09

Today started off well. I stepped on the Wii and it said I weighed 224 pounds! With my BMI finally dropping just below 32. That makes me happy and gives me some motivation.

I had 3/4 cup of whole wheat pasta (200 calories) with a chicken breast (200 calories) and half a cup of marinara sauce (60 calories) for lunch. I went to the gym and did the elliptical for an hour. For a snack I had a luna bar (180 calories). I had dinner in two parts, first were steamed potatoes (from the freezer section, with a butter sauce, 280 calories) and then an eating right mac and cheese frozen dinner (330 calories).

The total comes to just under 1300 for the day. I am very happy with this. Now for tomorrow and the weekend!

11/18/09

For breakfast I had a bagel (270 calories), with cream cheese (90 calories) and bacon (70 calories). I also had a coffee (est 100 calories). For a snack I had some chocolate milk (200 calories). For lunch I had a small baked potato (110 calories) with a little butter and cheese (est 90 calories). I then went to the gym and did the elliptical for 60 minutes (est. 542 calories burned). I then had 3/4 a cup of whole wheat pasta (200 calories), with a plain grilled chicken breast (est 150 calories) and a half cup of marinara sauce (70 calories). For a snack later I had a Luna bar (180 calories).

So today wasn't too bad. No pizza at least!

Pizza

Once again, emotions are my undoing.

My day began with a half cup of oatmeal with coffee (60 calories from the creamer). I had a doughnut (originally going to be my one treat for the day) which I am guessing cost me around 250 calories. I then found out that I did not get the job in which I was told I was going to get. For lunch I had the eating right mac and cheese (330), with hot coco (water, not milk, 60 calories). I was pretty proud of myself for not eating out. I then had for an early dinner an eating right ravioli (280 calories) and cracker trail mix (I am estimating 250 calories). Overall this would not have been bad. However, I had to run to Target to get some office supplies and ended up buying the personal pan pizza (650 calories)AND bread sticks (three at 140 a pop adds to a total of 420 calories!). This was PURE emotional eating. I even noticed that I felt full after the pizza and eat all the breadsticks, simply for the feel good feeling of taste. Therefore I went from what would have been a 1500 calorie day to a 2500 calorie day. Which just defeats all other efforts.

I have to admit that I am pretty mad at myself. All those extra calories for 5 minutes of great taste, 2 hours of upset stomach and several days of guild. So not worth it.

However, this is a great data point in this whole process. So instead of dwelling on the past I am going to move forward and get my ass to the gym tomorrow.

A Day

So today the Wii said I am 228, which was a little disconcerting but I know how weight can fluctuate easily. The good news is that I measured myself and have lost 2 inches around the waist so far! Not quite enough to fit into the next size down. However, I am hoping if I make my 10 lb goal by the new year I can buy a new pair of jeans!

For breakfast I had oatmeal (instant package, 160 calories), and coffee from home with creamer (60 calories for the creamer). For an early lunch I had a roast beef sandwich from Subway (405 calories). I then had an Eat Right frozen serving of mac and cheese for an early dinner. For a snack later (around actual dinner time) I had half a cup of veggie soup (60 calories) and a few handfuls (like 4) of a crack trail mix (I am assuming around 250 calories).

I finally did my weights today! I really hate doing weights. However, I am hoping to make this more routine. I want to first begin doing it at least once a day. Once I have this down, I want to up it to twice a day. However, one day at a time!

So overall I had a good day. One down, many more to go.

Topsy Turvey

So today went okay. I had a Luna bar for breakfast (230 calories). I went shopping and caved in and bought a pizza hut personal pan cheese pizza from Target. It was pretty tasty and cost me 640 calories. However, I did go to the gym (though I came VERY close to not going) and worked out for an hour on the elliptical (est. 555 calories burned). I am really happy I went, I do love the feeling I get after working out. I just have a problem getting there to do it. For dinner I had a frozen bean and cheese burrito (organic, lol, and 300 calories), with it I had a big bowl of steamed veggies (60 calories). I also had half a cup of raw milk with my dinner (a new thing I am trying out and it hasn't killed me like much of the propaganda out there would suggest). I also had one 100 calorie beer and half of a regular calorie (?) beer. Altogether, not too bad but obviously I could have done a little better (pizza and beer...).

I won't be able to work out for the next two days due to time constraints. However, I am hoping (and planning!) to make healthy eating choices.

It's Been a While

So...it's been a while. The BF came home, then another sprained ankle, add a dozen more excuses with a splash of laziness and there you have it.

I was dreading stepping on the Wii two days ago. I haven't been to the gym much in the last month but I have been taking walks while babysitting. As for my eating, I have been either eating really well or really not so well. However, my weight was 226, which means I actually lost one pound.

Needless to say I have fallen off the wagon. For dinner tonight...I ate way too much, really like two dinners. This sort of behavior really needs to stop. Food is definitely an addiction, and I have a problem. This is quite amusing being that I am a substance abuse therapist. Jokes on me I guess, especially since I know what I should be doing yet I continue not to.

Therefore, my next goal will be to lose 10 lbs by the new year. I am not sure if I will make it. I am setting it a little higher because I think I need that.

Tomorrow I am hoping to make it to the gym, and then simply to take it one day at a time.